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  • Beauty & Despair

    The loss of beauty leads to despair. This is the condition of our world without art and it is precisely what Tolstoy found when, confronted by the many competing definitions of beauty, he despaired of its existence and the effect this would have on his art.

    It’s actually difficult to understand this as a modern person because we are completely engulfed by ugly art. Not only art, but also anything made that could and should be beautiful is now not. As a teacher, I think a lot about classrooms and school buildings, with their low ceilings and intense fluorescent lights, their walls covered with ugly patterns of ugly-colored paint, their tiled floors. Where classrooms and academic buildings once, at their best, were designed to look like this, the University of Michigan Law School library:

    they now looks like this, a typical contemporary library at the same university, Michigan, as the above library:

    What is the difference between these two rooms? Why does one room, with its deep brown woods, its vaulted ceiling, its chandeliers, make one think of how pleasant it would be to study, how good it is to learn and commit oneself to learning, while the other, with its low ceilings, trademark fluorescent lights, ugly mass-produced tables and chairs, and puke green walls, make you feel ill-at-ease? The difference, I would argue, is that one was designed merely for its function (both are places of learning, broadly-speaking), while the other is designed for that same function but also for beauty. When beauty is not considered, ugliness and despair follow. You would want to leave the modern classroom as soon as the class period ended. You would want to stay inside that library until they forced you out. Why is that? What exactly is beauty, and what effect does it have on the human person?

    What is Beauty?

    Let’s return to Tolstoy. In his work, What is Art?, Tolstoy examines the myriad definitions of beauty, and, despairing of finding common ground between them, tosses up his hands and decides that beauty does not exist. He has become trapped within the cave. This loss of the reality of beauty leads Tolstoy to conclude that, if fiction isn’t simply for writing something beautiful, which it can’t be, then it must be for teaching moral lessons, and, since beauty doesn’t exist, he lambasts works of the past that don’t possess a strong moral lesson, such as his own masterpieces War and Peace and Anna Karenina, as well as works by Beethoven, Shakespeare, Dante, and many others besides.

    It’s important to note that, just because there are many competing definitions of “beauty,” this in no way means that beauty does not exist. People could have many different definitions of “peanut butter”. One person might say they’re the things that you wear on your face that help you see. One might say that its peanuts ground up so finely that the oil releases, making the peanut spreadable on bread. One person might say it’s the briny water that surrounds the landmasses of planet Earth. But these sundry definitions don’t mean that “peanut butter” doesn’t exist! It only means that many of those definitions are wrong, and only one is right. The point being, many philosophers have simply been wrong about their definition of “beauty”.

    Beauty is one of those things that we all know exists until that knowledge is beaten–or should I say, educated–out of us. One of the great “common sense” philosophers, St. Thomas Aquinas, defines beauty as “that which, when seen, pleases.” Now, there’s a start! This strikes one as being patently obvious, and yet, compared to the modern declaration that “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder (and, the implication being, it therefore doesn’t really exist outside of the individual’s mind),” Aquinas’ definition has the wondrous quality of actually claiming beauty does in fact exist. It is a thing outside of oneself that pleases those who behold it. Great!

    But he goes further, trying to define the core of beauty. “”For beauty three things are required: this first is integrity, or perfection; (second) due proportion, or harmony; and the third is splendor.” Again, this isn’t to get too lost in the weeds, but essentially, these means that there is a core to beauty. There is a certain perfection to it (so, a song doesn’t have a sour note, or at least, no sour note/dissonance without adequate reason for it being there); a harmony (so a work of fiction will harmonize, say, on several layers–character, plot, symbolism, theme, etc), and splendor, how bright it is, how deep (so a work of fiction whose theme is, say, the nature and meaning of suffering–The Brothers Karamazov–is going to have more splendor than one whose theme is a fairly surface-level examination of love and friendship–the Harry Potter series; or, to compare apples to something more like apples, the examination of good and evil in The Lord of the Rings has far more depth and splendor than the examination of the same in the Harry Potter series).

    Another way of applying this, and perhaps a better way, is to say that if a work of fiction has integrity (all of its character arcs, plot, and theme, etc. are satisfied) and harmony (all these things work in conjunction with one another, with nothing out of place), then a deep splendor, a kind of radiance, shines through–that feeling one gets of the depth of beauty when one closes Anna Karenina or The Iliad or some other beautiful work. A kind of deep joy is felt as the human heart and mind connect with the objectively beautiful, and we can deepen even more this splendor through contemplating a great work and understanding it more deeply for its richness.

    And this definition gives much flexibility to art to capture some “fragment” of the beauty of God. As Jacques Maritain says in Art & Scholasticism, “There is not only one way, but a thousand and ten thousand ways in which the notion of integrity, or perfection, or achievement cah be realized. The absence of head or arm is a lack of integrity very noticeable in a woman, and slightly noticeable in a statue, no matter how disappointed N. Ravaisson may have been at not being able to complete the Venus de Milo. The least sketch of da Vinci, let alone of Rodin, is more final than the most finished of Bouguereau. And if a Futurist thinks fit to give only one eye, or a quarter of an eye, to the lady whom he is portraying, no one denies his right to do so, one only asks-that is the whole crux-that this quarter-eye be all the eye needed by the said lady ‘in the given case.’” A beautiful object captures some part of beauty particular to itself, yet still in relation to that eternal beauty of the Divine Being. There are endless characters, themes, plots, and so on that could make for a beautiful work of fiction. Beauty is larger than any one work of art, and larger than every work of art ever created or to be created put together, as beauty is ultimately God Himself.

    We can see beauty most clearly, it seems, when we are merely living in reality. Nature is one of the great works of art, and simply looking up at the night sky, or standing on top of a mountain in the woods, or looking at the sun set over the ocean, is enough for us to feel beauty’s strong pull over our hearts and souls. It’s also clear to see how leads the heart to God–the beauty of these things very nearly wounds us. We are reminded of what we are made for. We feel the urge to throw away our phone, hug the people we love in such a way that they understand how deeply we love them, to live a meaningful life. It is the “wounding thing,” as Benedict XVI says. It wounds us because it reminds us of everything we so desperately, deeply want–to live in the spirit of God, to “choose Life, not Death” as Moses says to the Israelites (afterwards teaching them a song to remind them always of this choice–he knows he must appeal to their heart, and that truth found within beauty is of deepest power).

    Despair

    I don’t want to linger long on ugliness, but it is also noticeable when we compare it to something ugly, like modern art, which rarely possesses beauty. As such, no one is called to any sort of higher life when beholding it. To suggest that someone was put into the raptures of beauty while looking at a Jackson Pollack is absurd beyond absurdity, because it would be a total rejection of beauty and human nature.

    Ugliness leads to despair because we aren’t treated as spiritual beings. As von Hildebrand writes, there was once a time where even utensils were small reminders of our humanity, our strange nature of being both matter and spirit. As Pascal says, ““Man is only a reed, the weakest in nature, but he is a thinking reed. There is no need for the whole universe to take up arms to crush him: a vapour, a drop of water is enough to kill him. but even if the universe were to crush him, man would still be nobler than his slayer, because he knows that he is dying and the advantage the universe has over him. The universe knows none of this.” We once created things that were little reminders of this simply by being useful and beautiful. Alice von Hildebrand writes of even children’s toys once being “little masterpieces,” where now children only recieve mass-produced, ugly, plastic toys. And again, a cheap plastic toy is nothing compared to the horrors of looking at an AI-generated video.

    Beauty draws us in. It acts on us, and we can meet that act. Ugliness does little to act on us, certainly at our highest, most spiritual level. We must act on it to make any sort of meaning out of it.

    Moreover, we used to create art that far more powerfully and directly spoke the same truth.

    The ultimate end of all finite beauty is to manifest, even if in fragments, the infinite beauty of God.

    – Rev. Robert E. McCall, S.J.J.

    What is Art?

    An old distinction is useful when thinking about the question of art. People once distinguished between the “arts” and the “fine arts”. Remnants of this distinction still exist today. My degree is a “Master of Fine Arts”. But few could really explain the difference between the arts and the fine arts, and this collapsing of distinction has led, as it always does, to not insignificant confusion.

    An “art” is anything that is made. It is an art to build a house, or cook a meal, or put the sole on a shoe. It is an art to make a table, or to make the silverware that is set on the table. A “fine art” is anything that is made with the express purpose of being beautiful. A “fine art” is a “thing of beauty…a joy forever.” We have art forms that have been cultivated for millenia around this idea, from dance to theatre to poetry. From time to time, a new artform emerges, such as the novel (though there were novels in antiquity, the “modern novel” began in the 17th century, often with Don Quixote being named the first modern novel) or cinema, and the jury is still out on if video games are fine art (a question I’ll attempt to answer below as a huge fan of video games and art).

    Again, the idea of primary and secondary purposes comes into play here. A spoon need only be a spoon. A good spoon is one that can ladle soup from a bowl into your mouth. A bad spoon is one that cannot. “Arts” have their primary purpose in something other than beauty. And yet, they can still possess beauty to greater and lesser degrees. Dietrich von Hildebrand, in Aesthetics, writes on this so well that I feel I should quote him in full:

    [U]ntil the beginning of the nineteenth century and the triumph of the machine, culture had not yet been strangled by civilization. The expression of the spirit, the gift of giving form in such a way that was not practically indispensable, penetrated all the practical spheres of life up to that time. A knife should not only cut well; it should also possess a noble form. A chair should not only be comfortable and solid; it should also be beautiful, in fact it should sooner be a little less comfortable than be sober and prosaic. Practical life as a whole possessed an organic character and was therefore united to a special poetry of life. Related to this was the penetration of life by culture.

    But as the practical life of the human being was robbed of its organic character and was mechanized and thereby depersonalized, so too the poetry of practical life was lost. The practical requirements in residential homes became a prosaic matter that was radically detached from the affective and intellectual life that we lead as persons. Railway stations, factories, airports, filling stations, and department stores were built to serve technical, neutral purposes. Cities like Phoenix and Tucson in Arizona largely consist only of such buildings, which are completely separated from the residential homes. In all these buildings, it is clear that there is no link between practical requirements and the spiritual requirements of the human being. The latter are neutralized in such a way that they no longer offer any artistic stimulus for the architectural shaping of these buildings and rooms. The building itself becomes an object of technology.

    -Dietrich von Hildebrand, Aesthetics, vol. 2

    So, a practical “art” can nevertheless have beauty, and yet, in our mass-produced era, they typically do not possess much. And yet, the lack of beauty in practical arts is one of the great causes of despair in our times, because things that could remind us of our spiritual natures no longer do. A spoon is just a utensil. A classroom is just a space for receiving information. A city street is just a set of lanes for getting from one ugly commercial building to the next, with the potential to see some ads along the way. We are never reminded by these things of our spiritual nature, though in a better world, we would be, and we once were.

    The fine arts, on the other hand, pursue beauty above all else. If they are useful (say, a song written for a film score, or a painting to be displayed in a political building, or The Aeneid being used to secure a kind of political narrative of Rome), that is all well and good, but they do not need to be useful. They need only be beautiful.

    When we see something ugly, then, we are looking at something that has fundamentally rejected its own being, rejected entering into being as much as that is possible, because it has rejected the fullness of beauty. It also rejects the audience’s being by rejecting their need for beauty and for their heart to be moved at a deep level.

    The beginner fiction writer should be aware that art must lead the way to reforging the connection to the Divine through the Via Pulchritudinis–The Way of Beauty. The connection between fiction and truth will be explored in the next chapter. For now, it is worth saying that a work of fiction that has great plot, deep characterization, and great language–to oversimplify something that will be explored later–is what makes fiction beautiful.

  • Fiction Writing for Beginners: Introduction

    Having been a writer for well over a decade, having gone to a funded MFA, and having studied and taught literature for at least that same amount of time from K-12 to college students, I’ve decided to set down some thoughts on how to approach fiction writing. My hope is to write something approachable and unpretentious, yet still with the depth and scope that I think is necessary for anyone who has decided to start down the path of becoming a writer. I am, after all, not an academic, but a writer and fellow traveler on this strange road. “It’s a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there’s no knowing where you might be swept off to.”

    I hope these chapters will help almost as a map to a new writer. It will likely be particularly helpful to Catholic writers, as I’ll be speaking about writing from within that tradition. So while I’ll be using the greats like John Gardner, Robert McKee, Flannery O’Connor, Jody Bates, Brian Roley, Margaret Luongo, and George Saunders (among others) as my own writing mentors, I will also be pulling from the well of Catholic thinkers such as Aquinas, von Hildebrand (Dietrich and Alice), Josef Pieper, Benedict XVI, Jaques Maritain, and others to help deepen our understanding of beauty as a transcendental and path to God. I hope that doesn’t put non-Catholics off. We’ve had more than enough books come from a non-Catholic perspective on the subject (and many of these being wonderful books too!), but I think the Catholic tradition has much to contribute to the conversation–contemporaries like Joshua Hren have proven as much already.

    I plan on separating these works into 3 broad sections. First, I want to cover what beauty and fiction even are. These will provide both the ground beneath our feet in setting out to create a work as well as, strangely, a destination we want to travel to as writers. If we understand beauty and its particular expression in fiction, we can better understand when our works are finished and what they are for. I think that, one way or another, we will have some understanding of these things, so it’s best that we have the correct understanding of them (as far as I’m capable of expressing it). The consequences of having an improper understanding of what fiction even is can lead to all sorts of strange aberrations, such as the highly ugly and political fiction we see winning awards today.

    Next, I plan to go through an explanation of fundamentals. Once we have the destination and ground beneath our feet of a proper philosophy of fiction, we need to have our equipment needed for travel. We need to know what a character arc is, what a tragedy is, what a comedy is, how to create 2-dimensional characters or 3-dimensional characters, when to show and when to tell, what is a scene and sequence. Even things like how to write a great sentence, a great paragraph, and so on. My hope is to cover all the basics, everything necessary. Once the basics are down, an artist can fill in the corners, use the rules and break the rules, and all that.

    Finally, I’d like to present an explanation of the writer’s life. What is it actually like as a journeyman writer, on the road, never knowing if anyone will read your writing? What does that life look like? How can you find contentment in the great not knowing of if you’ll ever be read, even as you try to get your work published? I’d like a beginning writer to know these things. I don’t know what it’s like to be a famous writer, but certainly, many of our famous writers have spoken and written about this experience as well, and we’ll take them at their word to try and understand why it is necessary to find contentment with no readership and how to do so. After all, even famous writers were once not so, and had to live in the same world of not-knowing.

    I hope to put out about a chapter (blog post) per week or two on this, and that by the end of the year, we’ll have something like a complete work on this site that will be free to anyone who wanders in.

    This will all be written in great appreciation for all the great writers and thinkers who came before me and wrote about these things. I’ll simply be synthesizing them and giving my own perspective. I don’t want to simply regurgitate Save the Cat, or simple (and often incorrect) aphorisms like “Show, don’t Tell.” Rather, I aim to put together a comprehensive look at fiction writing and the life it entails for the beginner, the beginner nevertheless deathly serious about writing, as all beginners are.

  • My Students Don’t Know What a “Community” Is

    Socrates, in Plato’s “Phaedrus”, says that there is a danger in learning to write. He fears that, with this new technology, people will lose their memory and will become less wise, seeming to be very wise for having read, but being in truth unwise for never having thought through anything on their own or through dialogue with another. Writing, in short, is bad. It is a technology best ignored.

    This is a famous scene from Plato, famous as to almost be a cliche reference. Yet, it should give us fresh pause here to note that something we don’t even consider a technology or to have any negative effects could once have been thought of as a danger, a thought worth lingering on a while. Most of us wish we read more, or that our children read more, or that our society read more. We hear Plato, but perhaps our mind immediately turns to what we’ve gained through writing–access to different cultures, history, the Great Books, empathy and compassion and understanding!

    Yet, did we actually lose our memory? Perhaps individually we have, and as communities, we almost certainly have. How many of us know our family history? Know the street our parents grew up on? Our grandparents? In losing our own ability to reflect and converse, our wisdom has been lessened along with our memory.

    This loss of wisdom through communal memory became apparent to me through an essay I assign each semester to my college freshman which tasks them with locating a problem within their community and researching a potential solution. Anxiety sets in immediately. Some look lost, hopeless even.  I’m not trying to be dramatic or overwrought–they really don’t know how to begin this assignment, which is the largest grade of the semester. Inevitably, when I approach these students to ask if they have any questions, they tell me they don’t understand the assignment.

    “Well, what’s your community?” I say.

    “I’m not sure.”

    “Where did you go to school? Church? What town did you grow up in? Who are the people you’ve grown up with and known all your life?”

    Some are able to step off here, and I have received some great essays written about local communities. Essays about the need for walking spaces, essays about basketball courts in disrepair. But many still cannot. Instead of being prompted by these questions, they shrug. They still don’t know how to move forward. With this type of student, I then say, “What about a community online? Maybe you’re part of a video game community, or a community of people with similar health problems, or whatever.”

    These students then light up. “Oh! I can write about that?”

    I tell them yes, and they’re off to the races.

    They don’t have a local community. They have an internet community. 

    Do you see what has happened? Technology–here, the internet, social media, and so on–have robbed these students of something once an obvious part of human life, namely, the fact that everyone lives their life around others and shares a life with them. Those people are your community. Technology that, yes, plugged my students in with people who share an interest, has also completely disconnected them from an actual flesh and blood community of the people who live on their street, go to their school, their church, their parks, their restaurants, their grocery stores. They don’t even realize it has happened. They don’t know another way. Technology that was forced on them from childhood robbed them of something essential to human life.

    This is but one example. And the fact is, far more frightening technologies, ones with very little obvious good and much obvious bad, are right around the corner with AI and the new Transhuman technologies headed our way. AI has destroyed my students’ ability to write and their ability to think. Perhaps “destroyed” is the wrong word, as that implies it was there to begin with. Rather, they were robbed of it. AI came out in their prime learning years of middle and high school, and by the time they reach college, they perhaps have not set down their own words in years. They also don’t want to do research–after all, the AI can summarize research for them! But of course, they lose the strengthening of the mind through deep reading and interpreting and correlating facts. It’s as though they’ve only eaten baby mush–if presented with a steak, they find it distasteful because they no longer know how to chew. One day, perhaps they’ll see nothing wrong with their jaws being removed from lack of use. “Don’t give in to AI!” I tell them. “I teach you writing not so that you can get an A in a class, but so that you can write a Maid if Honor speech for your sister, or a letter to a friend going through a hard time, or a eulogy at your father’s funeral.” But to many students, I fear such examples are too abstract, too far away, and the allure of the easy A and a night spent smoking pot and playing Fortnite and scrolling Tinder are so real and so tantalizingly close….

    We have come, I think, to the place CS Lewis saw in his masterpiece, The Abolition of Man, where we have begun to give up the very things that makes us human, to cede over our humanity and the humanity of the future to technocrats, CEOs, Silicon Valley, the powers that be. 

    Why is this happening? I think, for one, those in power wish to create the Homo Deus, to reference Yuval Noah Harari’s work of the same name. This is, I think, the great modern project, one dreamt if in Comte and Nietzche and Feurerbach and in the minds if countless scientists and technologists and businessmen who could profit from it. These are the very same people who now run our world. It is the secular project to create the man who is forever young, beautiful, to finally cast off the yoke of religion which they see as tied only to our fear of death and psychological need for an afterlife. If we live forever, then we need not worry about these things. They have encouraged us to think this same way. We worship celebrities who don’t seem to age. We turn to gurus like Dr. David Sinclair who promise eternal life on this earth (even as he begins to appear more and more sickly, more and more wasted away). We try to keep up with modern slang as though we’re going to be here always to use it. We all study STEM, being so certain there is no future in the Humanities and all future in perfect health and new technology. If we could cure cancer, cure obesity, cure alzheimers, cure death itself. Pills pills pills. Botox and plastic surgery. This is the culture we are in. It’s the water we all swim in. If you don’t, it is because you actively resist. Dead fish swim with the current.

    It is also happening because of our wrongheaded idea of progress. We think of moving in one of two directions: forward or backward. Again, we are convinced from an early age that everything new is good. Of course we should perform trans surgeries. Of course we should perform abortions. Of course we should use IVF. And once we start, of course we can never stop. That would be Draconian! But we fail to see that we can not only move forwards or backwards, but we can also climb up or down, and this is a far more important movement to consider. We can grow colder, more violent, wishing evil on our political opponents. We can grow bitter, doomscrolling until we are certain everything is over. We can grow detached, thinking our lives don’t matter. Or we can grow bold, loving others, really loving them and looking them in the face and speaking to them. We can grow devout, going to church and thinking often of our God and if we are living up to His call for an adventurous life. We can grow happier, the rich, deep happiness of a life spent doing the right thing over the easy thing. 

    Every person has to look inside themselves every day and ask fundamental questions. Am I living the life I am meant to? How did I fail those around me who need me? How can I be better? Notice, these questions will not lead to top-down, idealistic and ideological solutions, the kind you will hear from the elites at the World Economic Forum or Silicon Valley. They will not lead to prescriptions everyone must follow. The answer to those questions will differ for all depending on their own lives and their own days, which are all we are responsible for. We may have to give up certain things we’ve grown accustomed to. I block the internet on my phone. I’m considering doing away with video games. I don’t drink except on the right occasion. Why? I want to be a present dad and husband. I want to be a great fiction writer. I want to read some books, because, though Plato is correct, books are a technology I think have benefitted me more than harmed me. Though I also don’t want to read too much, because I can become obsessive about reading and begin ignoring more important things. Simply, I want to live. I don’t want to live a life that is actually death in disguise. 

    We can give ourselves over completely to technology, and many do. Even hearing these arguments, many will shrug and say that it’s the way of the future–why worry or resist? It will certainly end up just fine. But of course, this isn’t true. Technology, especially this newer stripe, always promises us more life but actually robs us of it. The alternative is that we reclaim ourselves, and when we reclaim ourselves, we can come to reclaim our relationships, and from our relationships, our communities, and perhaps then, for a time, our world. 

  • Death Stranding and the Hidden Cost of Civilization

    Much has been said about the role of the violent man in the building of civilization. This is the theme meditated on in Red Dead Redemption, Logan, Seven Samurai, and Shane, among others. In these narratives, a violent man is given a violent task. This violent task, if completed, will greatly benefit civilization and civilized people. In RDR, for example, a disbanded gang of outlaws must be taken out in order for the Wild West to be settled. The great truth found in these stories is that violent men are necessary–but only for a time. When their time of violence is done, they are no longer needed, and they must be “put away” in order for non-violent civilization to flourish.

    While these stories play with characters who possess unsavory traits used for the good, there is another type of story, similar but distinct, in which there is a time for heroism, perhaps of a less violent nature, that also disappears. This story is told in My Antonia, in which the title character is a pioneer woman who has to give up the civilization of her father, a cultured man from Bohemia who loves music and isn’t cut out for pioneer life. While the cultured father perishes quite early in the book, Antonia thrives, openly forsaking elements of her femininity in order to become physically strong to dig and build and care for her family. She is the feminine version of the violent man. My Antonia praises her for being the exactly right person for the exactly right time, and again, as pioneers are no longer needed, she is a type of woman who is perhaps also “put away” in favor of the cultured woman. However, she is not violent and possesses many heroic virtues. To give a final example that illustrates the spectrum, it is also the story of Lonesome Dove, about a group of former Texas Rangers who, having settled the West, no longer have anything to do. They start the novel in limbo, then take on an adventurous cattle drive to Montana, which has no cattle, knowing that, once that drive is over, America will be well and truly settled, and their lives will be over. Violence is required of them at points, but so is heroism in other forms. In the end of that story, the two main characters both fail spectacularly at becoming civilized: one refuses to acknowledge his son as his own, and the other fails to embrace romantic love and the civilizing effect of that life.

    So, we have an archetype that appears again and again in stories of the person who is exactly the right person for that time and perhaps wrong for every other time. The tragic core of these stories is that, through their own actions, their way of life ceases to exist.

    This is the story of Death Stranding. To quickly summarize, hopefully without oversimplifying, you begin Death Stranding in a world where nature rules and civilization only exists in small pockets underground. You play as Sam Bridges, whose job is to brave the wilderness of this world in order to restore civilization. The gameplay mirrors this. The world is harsh and brutal, violent and unpredictable, difficult to traverse and difficult to comprehend. You have few simple tools–ladders and climbing anchors with short ropes attached. Like the best video game stories, you experience this story through the gameplay itself far more than through the cutscenes. You cross the world, which takes courage, inventiveness, prudence, fortitude. You do right by others however you can. You are a lone traveler in a desolate world, and only your inner strength carries you through.

    It is perhaps no surprise many drop the game at this point.

    However, as the game progresses, you learn you can help yourself and other players by building technological structures. To fast forward, these start off simple, making their way ultimately to roads and ziplines which allow you to, ultimately, quickly cross all the brutal terrain of the game. The process of building these roads and ziplines with other players is a tremendous joy, and seeing them go up, receiving likes from grateful players and giving them in return, is totally cathartic after the tens of hours spent struggling through the game.

    But, because of this, the game then grows stale. Deliveries are incredibly easy and simple. You drive the same roads over and over again. You take the same ziplines. Occasionally, you repair them. Monotony sets in, and you’ll likely get so bored of the game here that you stop playing. If not, you may complete the game, then, with nothing left to do, stop playing.

    So as to not belabor the point, this seems to be a reflection on the cost of civilization. Famous and oft-repeated is the anecdote that Plato himself thought that writing, one of civilization’s greatest inventions, would impair man, specifically in his ability to remember. While most of us, least of all me, would say we should do away with writing, it’s interesting to note that I rarely talk to people about their memories, to parents and grandparents about their experiences, their path through life, their way of understanding the world. These personal and collective memories fade, and we’re often left stranded on the island of Today and of Today’s news cycle, especially if we are not remarkably well-read. It seems Plato had a point.

    So much more the technologies of the day, which provide comfort and ease, but at costs that few, if any, have calculated. We are plunging headlong toward AI when we still haven’t reckoned with the potential damage television has done for our youth (or our adults, for that matter), and when we know that smartphones and social media are destroying us even as we continue to use them, like addicts with their preferred drug long after the moment of clarity and hitting rock bottom.

    These technologies rob us of ourselves if we let them. My writing students who turn to ChatGPT (assuming they aren’t caught) may end up with good to even great grades, which they probably think was the point of taking a writing class. But the point was actually to learn to think deeply and articulate yourself well. As I have said to many students many times, the point of a writing class isn’t to get a good grade on essays or even to learn to only write essays. Rather, it’s to learn how to express yourself so that you can write that Best Man or Maid of Honor speech, or that card of consolation to a grieving friend, or a eulogy to a parent or spouse or child. Life is simply too precious to hand over completely to technology and civilization.

    I’m not a luddite either, though I have flirted with the idea. I’m thankful for the heroes, whether Texas Rangers or soldiers in WWII or pioneer women or whoever, who made civilization possible. We need to accept and live up to that gift. And I am not a Manosphere type person who thinks men specifically need to reclaim ourselves through eating raw liver or whatever. Rather, we need to rediscover adventure. Adventure, the spirit of God and of life, comes to reach us all in our own particular station in life, even if the age of heroic adventuring of, say, Shackleton, is over (unless you’re going to get to Mars, which would be really cool). Perhaps you are a student, and the spirit of adventure is then to fully engage with academics, discover your life’s calling, find friendship and love, and so on. Perhaps you, like me, are married, and the adventure is to love your spouse through thick and thin, in good times and especially in bad times, and to have kids and raise them to be good people. Perhaps you’re a doctor, and the spirit of adventure calls you to develop yourself outside of work so that you can go back to your job refreshed instead of depressed. Perhaps you’re old, and the spirit of adventure is to continue developing your passions and to pass wisdom onto your children and grandchildren. Perhaps you’re a mother, and the spirit of adventure is to try to have a really great day with your kids. I don’t know (as a stay-at-home dad, that’s often my big adventure). All I know is that the spirit is ever-present and whispering to you. It tells you “You were not made for this” when you sit in front of the tv night after night, or doomscroll on your phone instead of listening to your friend right beside you, or when you take drugs and use people rather than get healthy and love someone. It tells you to do something even as you pop marijuana gummies and order Doordash and watch Friends reruns. You have heard this whispering voice. Heck, I have heard it when playing video games for too long rather than writing or reading.

    The point is, civilization, though it does its damndest, can never fully drown out the call to adventure. And in order to live, you have to heed the call.

    My last moments with Death Stranding, about a year before I thought of all this, was simply climbing a high peak in the game, looking at the sun, and then turning it off. I haven’t played it since. But my son and I have gone for many walks in the woods.

  • Antigone, 12 Angry Men, and the Mystery of the Human Heart

    Once, at a teacher conference, a literature teacher summed up his ideas on teaching literature to me. “Literature,” he said, “is just philosophy that’s fun to read. That’s all it is.”

    Being young and not particularly quick-witted–after all, I’m only addressing this now, five years later, in an essay–I used one of my stock responses when something seemed to me at once true and false, either “Huh,” or “Hmm,” or “That’s interesting.” Perhaps I used all three, one after the next. But regardless of my response, what he said has stuck with me for years as I’ve worked through my two artistic endeavors–teaching and writing fiction.

    Before that point, I had tried for years to write fiction that would make people think. My process was something like this–settle on an image or story, settle on some theme, and work like hell to marry the two, like some crazed matchmaker bent on joining the two instincts of my mind. After all, I had loved literature classes in high school, and I majored in English in college, and much of what was done in those classes was trying to “understand” the texts, coming to some interpretation that one could write out in an essay or impress other students with during class discussion. When I began writing fiction, before I set the first words of a draft down, I was thinking about the interpretation of my story, what I wanted it to mean, what I wanted my reader to get out of it. And as a teacher, this is how I taught my students as well.

    But at the teaching conference where I was confronted with my peer’s pithy take on fiction and philosophy, it struck me as wrong, and I found I was uncomfortable confronted by something that I could have said myself only a year or two before. A few things had begun to happen. First, I had begun reading philosophy. I was struck by wonder at hearing, on several different occasions, friends having conversations that I was simply unable to follow. I recognized that they were talking about something, perhaps that something being everything, or certainly, that something being of utmost, life-or-death importance. And yet I stood as though outside a room, unable to enter, lacking the key. So I asked them what I should read, and they recommended Plato and Boethius as well as John Paul II. So my journey, long and arduous and ongoing, began, and I found that reading philosophy, with its highly logical, propositional arguments and deep reasoning, was really not like reading fiction at all.

    The next thing that began to happen was that I started reading the Bible. Or, more like it, I started having the Bible read to me by one Fr. Mike Schmitz, a testament to how technology need not be all bad. The Bible’s influence began to change and deepen my worldview, which, though it had been inspired by those who knew and loved the Scriptures, had never gone through this one true Source on its own. My faith was deepening, and I was trying to put it into practice.

    Last, all the while I was attending Miami University’s MFA program, and I was learning quickly that ideological writing was not good writing. This is the kind of thing that I had heard many writers say, but that didn’t become part of my own way of being until I began to run up against how awful my fiction was when I was thinking more about themes, ideas, messages than things like plot, character, setting, details, sentence structure, and the like. My fiction was bad, and the only way to make it better became, in a creative breakthrough, to let go of the idea of writing essays disguised as stories, the “mongrel thing” that Flannery O’Connor refers to in Mystery and Manners. Suddenly, I found, I could write anything, where before, my stories by and large fell apart before I finished them, or ended dull, sterile, lifeless, lacking any mystery. I came to think that, while philosophy and fiction were connected, it was in a far different way than I had initially thought. Philosophy, or more broadly, worldview, is the stuff that stories are cut from. The fiction writer has a way of seeing, and that way of seeing comes through in the stories that they tell, through plot, character, and so on. The story is not a set of propositions that come to a logical conclusion, but rather, a series of events, of characters making decisions and facing consequences in certain times and places, that come together like a great tapestry and communicate something deeper than an idea, but rather, a whole way of seeing reality itself. The writer need not think about themes and ideas–they are working with something far more complex and mysterious that will come through all the more the less they consider it. You are dealing with worldview and also the deep mysteries of the human heart, things that philosophy struggles to deal with, particularly the latter.

    Two of the most logical, philosophical, dialectical works of art–Sophocles’ Antigone and Reginald Rose’s Twelve Angry Me–seem to actually prove this point. Teaching Antigone was a revelation, both as a writer and teacher. Antigone seems deeply philosophical and dialectical. Antigone seems to represent the Justice of the gods, true Justice, while Creon represents the justice of the state, a lowercase, flawed kind of justice. The two are at odds with each other and have several exchanges over which form of justice is knowable and must be followed. The entire thrust of the narrative is the thrust of this argument. And yet, as Antigone is sentenced to death, she gives this monologue:

    “Yet he who thinks will praise what I have done.
    Never, were I a mother and my son
    Lay dead, were I a wife and he that died
    My husband, never had I so defied
    My City’s will. Ye ask me on what ground?
    A husband lost, another might be found;
    Another son be born if one were slain.
    But I, when Hades holds my parents twain,
    Must brotherless abide for evermore.
    Therefore I did thee honour, and therefore:
    Hath Creon called me mad, my brother, yea,
    A doer of evil. And I am led away
    Unwed, unsung, robbed of the love that should
    In right be mine and joy of motherhood.
    Friendless, by fate accursed, with my breath
    Yet warm, they cast me to the House of Death.”

    Antigone doesn’t care about her logical arguments about Justice. She loved her brother. That’s all, and that’s what she was willing to risk it all for. She would not have done it for a husband, or her own child had she any. She did it for her brother, for never would she have another brother. It’s quite a strange and cruel, yet also true and lovely, sentiment, all twisted and gnarled. She seems to have used reason about divine Justice and the gods, merely as a cover-up to her true, strange, foreign intentions. Here, the mystery of the human heart is laid bare, and we can only step back in silent wonder.

    A similar moment is found in Twelve Angry Men. At the end of that film, only one juror, Juror 3, is holding out with a guilty verdict. Finally, he reveals why.

    “The whole thing about hearing the boy yell? The phrase was ‘I’m gonna kill you.’ That’s what he said. To his own father. I don’t care what kind of man that was. It was his father. That goddamn rotten kid. I know him. What they’re like. What they do to you. How they kill you every day. My God, don’t you see? How come I’m the only one who sees? Jeez, I can feel the knife goin’ in.”

    Juror 3 here is willing to sentence a young man to death because of his own fractured relationship with his own son. His heart is on full display for us, and soon after this pivotal moment, the movie ends. We have seen the human heart laid bare. There is little else to see.

    In each of these stories, and in any story worth anything, the human heart is laid bare, as is all of reality–in the movement of plot, in characterization, in sentence structure or shot framing, in how the story ends and how the story begins, all of it works together to reveal an entire way of seeing the world. This also, in part, explains why no two authors write the same story, even if the premise may be similar. The two authors have two ways of seeing the world by their two separate lives.

    I am sure in future posts I will address these issues one at a time, more specifically, but for now I can say that my writing and teaching has improved that I no longer teach literature as philosophy that’s fun to read, a statement which belittles philosophy and literature. After all, why read philosophy if fiction is more fun, and where does beauty go if all that matters is logical ideas?